Life up side down

Recently, my life have been upside down and a lot unfortunate things happened on us. I was devastated! heart broken! and really dont felt wanna live!

I`m serious, and it aren't funny to talk about it.

Sigh,...(take a deep breath...)

It just unbelievable "shits" do happened especially after back from holidays.

At the beginning, I thought after my parents go back. Everything will be like normal life. Ray and I will continue our daily job, and I was exciting to meet my colleagues, Halloween party, more shifts for Christmas holidays, company Christmas & New Year party and etc.

All the suddenly, my mum selfishness, the day before they back to country, she told me that my brother going to stay here with us. Ya,..here Australia! at my places! Our 1 bedroom unit!

So, a lot dramas happened which I totally piss me off and you guys dont even bother to ask. Otherwise go to fuck yourself out. For those, my close friends and know me for ages they know what is going on and I`m glad thanks be so understandable and support me.

I do love my brother very much. It just a lot things will change and wont be forever like this and not to mention people will growth up and move forward to next level in their life. Anyway, I`m felt blessed I got Ray which always look after me and take care me and not matter what happened on me. He still stand strong beside me, support me,love me dearly and accepted me who I am included my family members. He is my true hero deep down in my heart.

oh, god. please don't do this to us. Is this some kind of "test"?

So, if you guys asked me how was the holidays. To be honest, it was damn exhausted not because too many places to pay visits neither long journey tours. It was mentally exhausted. I realized my parents they are getting old and I swear I never saw so many wrinkles on their faces and health condition as well. I felt sad about it and I grown up so much and live independently since I`m studied overseas and away from home for ages. Anyway, I try to enjoy myself as much as I can when on holidays. Otherwise, what a waste after put so much effort and earn money and give us a good breaks.

Okay, next thing I going to talk about is the most painful! and I was so DEVASTATED! because of that incident, I couldn't go back to work next day and I even took a day off. After my parents back to country on 22 oct. On 26 Oct a burglary happened on our house. All the valueable things has GONE!

All my precious cameras, video cam, my brother laptop, lens, gold jewellery, camera bags, watches and etc have been stolen and we did make police report and on next day they sent the emergency unit to take finger prints and took some photos on the crime scene. It was undescriptable how I feels. That night I was cried so much and couldnt slept whole night. At that time everyone was devasted and speechless.

You guys, have not ideas how I feel when the police asked us to fill up a form try to list out what things have been stolen. I was fucking angry and FUCK the guys who stolen from us. I swear I`m gonna curse him for the rest of his life motherfucker! and really hope he will die soon or got car crash him into like mince pork!

Unfortunely, we still havent heard any good news. Only they found a video cam on second-hand shop at XXX and asked for series no. The lucky thing, is I done the back up for all the photos and videos. Otherwise, I really really hurted.

Anyway, I really thanks to all my colleuages for their moral supports. Love u all and thanks for been there when I need it and thanks all the sms. God bless u all.

I cant said I`m totally "move on" or get over it. Sometimes, it still flies in my mind and it still hurt. But, less. In my entire life, I never been felt so misable or hurt so much as this time. Anyway, a wound also need time to heal it. I know, some people think this is just a small potato case compare to other crime case. At least everyone is safe and sound. Money gone, still can earn back in the future. Yaaaaaa, right! sound so easy, we have been work our ass hard to earn money especially nowsaday economic is unstable, everywhere company "playing " redundancy.

It just it was our 1st time encounter such as incident and especially after holidays which still in honeymoon mood. What a 360' turns! I`m sure not one can just simply accept it!

So, in the future, I wont be active blogging as much I used to be. It is because now 3 of us have to share the computer and totally don't have much freedom to do what ever we want like we use to. I just couldn't afford to spend more money just to buy another laptop for my brother and not to mention cover his living expenses here and my parents financial problems which just happened recently. All is about money money money!

sighhhhhhh,...dear god, this is too much challenges for me.

Anyway, after end of this lease contract, we sure wanna move out again bcoz this house really give us a lot unfortunes and we also had a little conflict with landlord regarding unfix water leaking issues which countless letter been sent & reply.

So, from now on you guys wont be see any beautiful or high quality photos since my precious babe has goneeeeeeeeeee! Mannnn! I still really piss off and angry!. hmmmmmmmmm,... (take a deep breath again,.....calm down..calm down...calm down)



We just bought a small CANON digital camera. I just couldnt afford buy another expensive camera and lens after I had invested for much money on it! GOSH!... it hurt! when look at photo. My assest.............feel like a warrior fight without a mighty sword, so powerless.

okay,...next post I will update my 2 weeks holidays. Will try to find sometime to update it. Cant believe gonna be end of 2008.